So last night i was reminded of how fallable i am in regards to the emotional attachment to food. I was at a small gathering celebrating a number of our birthdays which are coming up. pretty much all the food there was off my normal list of eating but i dabbled, including birthday cake. (HEY IT HAD MY NAME ON IT DAMMIT :) ). Later in the evening, i was talking with a friend who is also conscious of how they eat and had eaten like myself. I said, "Ive been so good! Now im going to pay for it!" UGH. Yeah, my stomach has been doing somersaults since then which given how i eat is to be expected. The other response is the more troubling. Ive been so good. How many of us have said that after a similar experience? And why? Why do we punish ourselves by emotionally attaching ourselves to what we eat?
Some reactions are good to be sure, the smells of holiday dinners reminding us of better times, a favorite recipe filling the house with that aroma. That is the positive side, but somewhere along the line a validation sinks in. We are good if we finish our veggies, bad if we cheat much. If we do good things we are rewarded with foods, that we are taught are ones to avoid. Where does this lead? It can lead to a overdose of "comfort food". See? assigning emotional comfort to food. The if the trend continues, as it did for myself, we can find ourselves unhealthy, seeking ways to unlearn what we have learned to regain health and (again for myself) sanity. And the extreme ends of it fall into eating disorders, shame spiraling, and its own brand of insanity. Place yourself in the mindset of a young person, bombarded with images of what "perfect bodies" look like, and then the next second hit with 10 commercials touting the most unhealthy but trendy crap a laboratory can put together.
But its amazing how it stays with you. Here I am, smarter than ive been ever about eating and exercising and still, I assign punishment to myself for eating a slice of cake. Frailty is thy name Fitmedic....
So where does it go? Where do we stop this? Is it possible to look at a plate of food and take the emotion away? can we look at it at its most basic, as a source of (hopefully) clean energy to allow us to live our lives as best we can ? Any change would probably start around the family dinner table. Not rewarding good grades with an extra dessert for instance. And by the way, if there isnt a family dinner table, maybe there should be? A chance to avoid Tv, cell phones, computers and other distractions and be as a family group, however its constructed at the time.
Id like to think that something i wrote could get people to think, about their own situations they face and how they deal with it. Maybe the next time you have a meal, whether its a normal day or a cheat day, acknowledge how tied in emotionally you are. DO you feel bad or good after eating? The ask why? The answers may be interesting......
All the best :)
